Rip My Heart Out Of My Chest, Goin' Nowhere Fast

I figured it out, I think. Why I'm physically "comfortable" around K, but I don't know anything else.

I'm numb. I realized tonight that I literally cannot register any feelings when he touches me. I'm sure the same would be true for just about any guy, so it's not his fault.

I feel like I'm just watching my life on TV. Nothing is registering internally.

I don't know why. I don't know what's wrong.

It's not like I DON'T want him touching me, but I don't particularly WANT it, either. Numb. It just doesn't feel like anything. Like it's happening to someone else.

I'm really messed up.