But In The End, It Doesn't Even Matter

Being friends with mostly guys can really suck sometimes. Guyfriends never just ask you how you're doing. Okay, not never, but rarely. And when they do, and you try to talk to them about how you're really feeling, they don't always listen.

I really just want to talk to someone. To have someone know exactly what I'm feeling, and at least try to help me. Which happens occasionally, but like... I dunno. I want something like

I can't even miss him anymore, it hurts too much. But I can't help it, either.

I would seriously hang out with B and his roommates every day, if I wasn't worried about them getting sick of me. xD I would hang out with any of my friends every day if I could. If I have to choose between being with my friends and doing ANYTHING else, friends win like 99.9% of the time. It's the only time I feel okay.

But I can't be with my friends all the time. So I hurt.

Kinda sucks.

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