And Holy FREAK They Were ALIENS!

So apparently I need to clear a few things up, as brought to light by C's message. This post is going to be full of ranting, because I need to let this all out before I go crazy or something.

A) Yes, I have a crush on W. This does not mean I am doing anything to "mess up his relationship." I haven't hung out with him in months, and when I did, his girlfriend was there. I haven't talked to him in weeks, and when I do, I always invite his girlfriend along. I would not do ANYTHING to pull him away from his girlfriend. I'm actually NOT a "desperate slut," thanks. W is still my friend and he's fun to hang out with and play Halo with. And his girlfriend is awesome, at least as far as I can tell from the times I've hung out with her. Hope that clears that up.

B) Yes, I've told C that I would be there for him if he needed me. I didn't say I would stop hating his girlfriend. I would indeed have been there for him if he needed me. Even if he needed me to help him think of ways to win her back or something, I would have helped him. I would have discouraged it, sure, but I would have helped him.

C) Just because you don't love someone doesn't mean they don't love you.

D) I'm not the only one who thinks those things about BF. I'm just the only one who put them on my blog, because I don't care who knows what I think about her. Other people have a little more tact than me when it comes to her, I guess.

E) I really don't think I should be getting the blame when it was his lies I was believing. The only reason I think those things about him is because I loved him and I believed he loved me. Don't lie, kids!

F) The dreams I have about C aren't "creepy." They're usually nightmares about him leaving me. Over and over. So yeah. That would be why I wake up crying.

G) Yeah, I'm not impulsively chasing every guy I see. Since C dumped me after lying to me for two years, I have liked:

W: explained above
A: I know he doesn't like me, so we are just good friends.
B: I was always unclear on what I felt about him, and we ended up just being great friends.
N: Ended up being bipolar and depressed, and I just didn't need that, so when he started talking to me about depressing things, I broke it off.
B's roommate: I met him the day before I got C's message so I don't even know what's going on with him yet.

That's it. Pretty sure that's not every guy I see. And it's not that I "can't get a guy to go out with" me. I've actually been on quite a few dates, thanks. It's just that none of them have ended up being people I want a relationship with, or they don't want a relationship with me. Which is PERFECTLY normal. Not everyone is lucky enough to end up with their "middle school sweetheart."

H) It's true that I used to think that she wasn't good enough for him, that she was just a manipulative bitch who was using him. But now I see that they're perfectly suited for each other. Excuse me for believing all the lies he told me and thinking he was an awesomely amazing guy.

Basically I'm just kinda pissed right now. But I hope this clears everything up for anyone who's reading this, I wouldn't want them to be under the same mistaken impressions that C was.

Also, just want to add that I have the best friends in the world, and that's way better than having some lying bastard of a boyfriend.

8 down, 20 to go.