Them Boys

Okay, I'm probably going to refer to boys in this blog. So I better give people the rundown on their code names. Those who know me will probably recognize the descriptions.

Boy A - A close friend, who I have a little bit of a crush on. He's very random and spontaneous, and I guess that might be why he's so awesome.

Boy B - A boy at college. I met him at a dance. He's very fun to hang out with, and we've gone on a couple dates, but I'm not exactly sure what to make of him yet.

Boy C - Oh boy, this is the big one. Dated him for two years, thought it was going to be much longer than that, but he left me for his best friend, a girl I will simply refer to as BF.

Boy D - My best friend, practically my brother. We hang out and play video games.

Boy W - Guy I "kinda dated" for about... a month? I don't even know. He's pretty attractive, but he's being kind of a jerk lately. He hardly talks to me.

Those are the most prominent boys in my life, I guess. There are others, of course, but those are the ones I think about most.

Anyway, C isn't talking to me right now, even though I wish he would. I almost ran into (literally) him and BF a couple times today. They were coming out of a building I was going into. If I had been a couple seconds slower, we would have gone through the door at the same time. When I turned around and went back out of the building, they were outside the door. C practically jumped out of the way as I walked past, not looking at him, because that's what he wants.

I guess right now B is my best bet. He's funny and smart, and I like hanging out with him. But parts of me won't let go of W and A, let alone C. Right now, if I could have my choice of boys, I'd probably go with C, A, W, then B. Just because... Well, I usually like guys more the longer I know them, and I've only known B a couple weeks.

But really, my best prospects are probably B... and then I don't even know. I don't know if A even thinks about me, W is being a jerk and not really talking to me much, and C is with BF and not talking to me at all. So, almost the opposite of what I would choose.

Just to add to all of that, of course there are hot, tall guys at college.

Really, I just want someone to be with. I guess it comes from being with C for so long, but I just want to have someone who's going to be around, who'll play video games with me, who'll joke with me, who will buy me books, but will also call me beautiful and treat me like a girl when I want to be treated like one.

I guess I just don't know. I wish I had the courage to talk to A, I wish I could get to know B better (this one will probably happen), I wish C would just freaking talk to me (is it really THAT hard to say hi once in a while?), and I wish W wasn't being such a jerk.

But hey, D is really great! Best bro a girl could ask for. :D