Dilemmas. Hahaha.

Yeah, that word doesn't even mean anything anymore. xD

Basically, I don't know what to do on the boy front. I'm most attracted in general to A, most physically attracted to W, and B I think I just like as a friend. But I don't know how to tell B that, and I don't really know what to do about A, because I don't think he likes me like that, and with W... well, he's just a master of mixed signals. Although he did say I was attractive. Basically I guess I'll just try to hang out with them when I can, try and feel it out some more.

A's not liking me may have been influenced by D, who doesn't think it's a good idea for friends to date. Thanks, bro. No wonder A revoked your bro privileges. :P (If you're reading this, D, I'm just kidding and I love you, man.)

With W, it's just like... I think we're both pretty physically attracted to each other, and maybe more than that, but we can't hardly ever hang out. Which is lame.

As for B... like, he's nice and funny, but I just don't feel a spark. I feel more like I'm hanging out with a new friend than a potential crush, even. But I don't know how to tell him that. I guess I'll just be honest with him at some point, tell him I'm still really interested in some guys I already knew, and that I'd love to be friends with him. Because I think that's mostly what it is, that I'm just already attracted to W and A.

Woo anxiety. xD Really, right now I would basically trade something very valuable for a hug/cuddle from W or A. I just feel so much calmer when I'm with guys I care about and trust. Which is why I try and hang out with D so much, because I feel calmer. Not as calm as when I'm with a guy I have a crush on, but still calmer. I guess I just love physical contact, and I don't get that much of it.

Maybe W can hang out tomorrow, and we can play some Halo and hug or something. >.< That would be nice.

And maybe I'll hang out with A soon, try and cheer him up. He's awesome.

Basically, my brain is focused on boys right now. I'm not even going to start on C or J. xD