Guys. I am taking a break from my regularly scheduled ranting-about-guys to tell you about Breaking Benjamin's new album, Dear Agony.
It. Is. AMAZING.
I love it.
<3
What Lies Beneath is a great song. Well, they're all great songs.
(In rant-about-guy land, A is having some kind of issues, but doesn't want to talk. W and I might hang out on Wednesday. B wants to be hooked up with Chaos.)
Go listen to Dear Agony. I'm serious.
Music
Truth or Dare
So, let's see. Friday night, went over to my friend Nick's house for a party. A was there, so that was good, but so were C and BF. Before the party, A wasn't sure he wanted to go because he thinks everyone hates him. I told him nobody hates him, and he should come to the party. He ended up coming, and I stuck pretty close to him the whole night, since he was my closest friend there. We made fun of C and BF, because they were all over each other. It was pathetic.
Keeping in mind that C doesn't want to talk to me, I basically avoided him all night. I was dying to talk to him, but he made it pretty clear that he doesn't want me being friends with him. There were a couple times when he might have been going to say something to me, but I wasn't looking at him and he didn't. I wish he had. I miss talking to him so much. He's a fun guy.
Anyway, I guess A is interested in a couple different girls, but none of them are interested in him. I know how he feels, I guess. I'd like to talk to him more about it, especially tonight 'cause he says he's having a bad night, but he said he's not in a mood to talk. So I leave him alone. I don't want to be pushy.
Now. W. Gah. From the way we talk to each other, and the way he's been wanting to hang out with me more, you would think he would just dump his 'girlfriend' and ask me out. Maybe it'll happen soon. He says he likes the girl, but that there are some things he's just not sure about. Basically he's a hormone crazy teenage boy. Surprise! We played a game of Truth or Dare over MSN today, so I got to ask him some things I'd wanted to. Apparently he talks more to me than the girl. So we'll see how that works out, I guess. I really do like him. He came over yesterday to play Halo, and it makes me feel good just to be near him.
Anyway, that's about it for right now. Basically I'm still wishing I could talk to people more. Guess I'll talk to D when he gets on tonight. Yay for best friends! Even though he has tons of homework and stuff, we still talk pretty much every day. He's a great guy. And he's so happy with Ali, it's so cute. :D
Keeping in mind that C doesn't want to talk to me, I basically avoided him all night. I was dying to talk to him, but he made it pretty clear that he doesn't want me being friends with him. There were a couple times when he might have been going to say something to me, but I wasn't looking at him and he didn't. I wish he had. I miss talking to him so much. He's a fun guy.
Anyway, I guess A is interested in a couple different girls, but none of them are interested in him. I know how he feels, I guess. I'd like to talk to him more about it, especially tonight 'cause he says he's having a bad night, but he said he's not in a mood to talk. So I leave him alone. I don't want to be pushy.
Now. W. Gah. From the way we talk to each other, and the way he's been wanting to hang out with me more, you would think he would just dump his 'girlfriend' and ask me out. Maybe it'll happen soon. He says he likes the girl, but that there are some things he's just not sure about. Basically he's a hormone crazy teenage boy. Surprise! We played a game of Truth or Dare over MSN today, so I got to ask him some things I'd wanted to. Apparently he talks more to me than the girl. So we'll see how that works out, I guess. I really do like him. He came over yesterday to play Halo, and it makes me feel good just to be near him.
Anyway, that's about it for right now. Basically I'm still wishing I could talk to people more. Guess I'll talk to D when he gets on tonight. Yay for best friends! Even though he has tons of homework and stuff, we still talk pretty much every day. He's a great guy. And he's so happy with Ali, it's so cute. :D
People Are Confusing.
Okay, updates.
B- Last night he confessed that he was starting to really like me. I panicked for a minute, and asked A what I should say. He told me to just be straightforward and tell him the truth, which I was planning on doing anyway, but it helped to have someone else tell me to do it too. I told B that I didn't feel the same way about him, that I was still having some boy issues. He said he was kind of expecting that, and we're still friends. So that's one weight lifted off of me. In its place are several more! :D
W- Is basically the most confusing guy ever. We've been talking a lot more, and we want to do stuff together, but he has a "girlfriend." He told me that they're basically just "together" because she sent the relationship request on Facebook, and he didn't want to hurt her feelings by saying no. He came over to my house today, and we played games and stuff. I just... I don't know what I feel about him, exactly. I'm attracted to him, definitely, but I don't know if it's going to go anywhere. Or if I'll like where it goes.
A- Probably still my #1 choice, if it were possible. But I'm pretty darn sure he doesn't feel like that toward me at all. I may be one of his best friends, but I'm still just "one of the guys." Just wish I had a chance.
C- Ugh, I keep seeing him everywhere. ._.
D- Basically one of the best friends ever. He helps me out a lot, usually. Sometimes he can get a little high off his relationship with Ali, but that's okay with me.
W got me some CDs of new music! :D I'm excited, I've wanted more new music for a while. So as soon as my iTunes finishes updating, we'll see what I've got! Should be pretty good stuff. Music is basically one of my favorite things in the world.
Anyway, that's about all I can think of right now. Surprise! It's mostly boys. xP
B- Last night he confessed that he was starting to really like me. I panicked for a minute, and asked A what I should say. He told me to just be straightforward and tell him the truth, which I was planning on doing anyway, but it helped to have someone else tell me to do it too. I told B that I didn't feel the same way about him, that I was still having some boy issues. He said he was kind of expecting that, and we're still friends. So that's one weight lifted off of me. In its place are several more! :D
W- Is basically the most confusing guy ever. We've been talking a lot more, and we want to do stuff together, but he has a "girlfriend." He told me that they're basically just "together" because she sent the relationship request on Facebook, and he didn't want to hurt her feelings by saying no. He came over to my house today, and we played games and stuff. I just... I don't know what I feel about him, exactly. I'm attracted to him, definitely, but I don't know if it's going to go anywhere. Or if I'll like where it goes.
A- Probably still my #1 choice, if it were possible. But I'm pretty darn sure he doesn't feel like that toward me at all. I may be one of his best friends, but I'm still just "one of the guys." Just wish I had a chance.
C- Ugh, I keep seeing him everywhere. ._.
D- Basically one of the best friends ever. He helps me out a lot, usually. Sometimes he can get a little high off his relationship with Ali, but that's okay with me.
W got me some CDs of new music! :D I'm excited, I've wanted more new music for a while. So as soon as my iTunes finishes updating, we'll see what I've got! Should be pretty good stuff. Music is basically one of my favorite things in the world.
Anyway, that's about all I can think of right now. Surprise! It's mostly boys. xP
Guhblughrgb. Boys.
Basically, I'll just give you updates on whichever boys are on my mind. And maybe occasionally some other stuff.
A- Apparently I'm one of his best friends right now. Which makes me feel awesome, but it also means that he talks to me about a girl he has a crush on, but who doesn't return the feeling. Which is a little weird, since I have a crush on him. But I'm really glad he thinks of me as such a good friend, and that we're talking a lot more.
W- ... Okay, I don't even know where to start. There's obviously a mutual attraction, but he's quite the player. He's got a "girlfriend," but apparently they're not "steady dating or anything." I kinda thought that's what a girlfriend was... Basically, he's confusing as heck. But dang is he hot. xD
Anyway... Went and visited A at work today. He works at a frozen custard place, and I wanted custard after my night class. He said he was bored enough to die, because they were pretty much dead.
Yeah, basically that's it for now. My brain is a lovely place. >.<
A- Apparently I'm one of his best friends right now. Which makes me feel awesome, but it also means that he talks to me about a girl he has a crush on, but who doesn't return the feeling. Which is a little weird, since I have a crush on him. But I'm really glad he thinks of me as such a good friend, and that we're talking a lot more.
W- ... Okay, I don't even know where to start. There's obviously a mutual attraction, but he's quite the player. He's got a "girlfriend," but apparently they're not "steady dating or anything." I kinda thought that's what a girlfriend was... Basically, he's confusing as heck. But dang is he hot. xD
Anyway... Went and visited A at work today. He works at a frozen custard place, and I wanted custard after my night class. He said he was bored enough to die, because they were pretty much dead.
Yeah, basically that's it for now. My brain is a lovely place. >.<
Lovely Weather!
So, today. D locked his keys in his car, so I had to drive him home and back for his spare. xD He bought me Wendy's, so we're even. He's really sick and had been napping in his truck, and he forgot to grab his keys when he got out. Anyway, I hope he's sleeping off that cold right now.
Then later, I was talking to W and A on Facebook. Just talking to W about whatever, and about how I'm really shy and can't talk to guys. He logged off in the middle of a conversation, but that's normal for him... not that it's not annoying.
Talking to A... apparently the girl he has a crush on does not return his feelings, and now she and her friends are acting like they hate him. Which isn't very mature at all, but from what I gather she's still in high school, so I guess it makes sense. Anyway, it was kind of weird to talk to him about it, because I have a crush on him, but I know he doesn't return the feeling. It's just weird. I'm fine just being his friend, but I'd like a chance. ._.
Went to a movie tonight with B and my friend Chaos. I'd really like to hook them up, because I think they'd be great together. Funny movie, too. Inglorious Basterds. Kinda gory, but more funny than anything.
So basically, this is my brain: boysboysboyscookiesboysboysschoolboysboysboys.
Yeah.
Then later, I was talking to W and A on Facebook. Just talking to W about whatever, and about how I'm really shy and can't talk to guys. He logged off in the middle of a conversation, but that's normal for him... not that it's not annoying.
Talking to A... apparently the girl he has a crush on does not return his feelings, and now she and her friends are acting like they hate him. Which isn't very mature at all, but from what I gather she's still in high school, so I guess it makes sense. Anyway, it was kind of weird to talk to him about it, because I have a crush on him, but I know he doesn't return the feeling. It's just weird. I'm fine just being his friend, but I'd like a chance. ._.
Went to a movie tonight with B and my friend Chaos. I'd really like to hook them up, because I think they'd be great together. Funny movie, too. Inglorious Basterds. Kinda gory, but more funny than anything.
So basically, this is my brain: boysboysboyscookiesboysboysschoolboysboysboys.
Yeah.
Short Texts Can Make a Big Difference
So last night after I saw that W was "in a relationship," I was in kind of a bad mood. D was still at work so I couldn't talk to him about it, and I was too nervous to text A. Basically, talking to A, D, or C (if he would) is the only thing that makes me feel better when I'm feeling down. I texted D anyway, and then saw that A was on Facebook, so I sent him a message like, "Hey, what's up?"
But he signed off.
Now, I was a little sick of people doing that to me, and I know A's been feeling like none of his friends care lately. So I sent him a text.
"Hey A, what's up? Go ahead and ignore this too, if you want, but just remember I'm still your friend, or at least trying to be. :P"
And he replied, "sorry, not in the mood to talk."
"Okay, just wanted to make sure you know I'm your friend. Night, then."
And I didn't expect a reply to that, since he had said he wasn't in the mood to talk, I figured he would just go to bed.
But then I got a text that said, "i do, night."
And just that tiny, short text cheered me up, because I hadn't been expecting it from him. He's usually very distant, doesn't talk to people much unless he wants to.
So I cheered up and went to bed.
Anyway, home from visiting cousins now, and I should sleep soon, since I have school in the morning. xP
But he signed off.
Now, I was a little sick of people doing that to me, and I know A's been feeling like none of his friends care lately. So I sent him a text.
"Hey A, what's up? Go ahead and ignore this too, if you want, but just remember I'm still your friend, or at least trying to be. :P"
And he replied, "sorry, not in the mood to talk."
"Okay, just wanted to make sure you know I'm your friend. Night, then."
And I didn't expect a reply to that, since he had said he wasn't in the mood to talk, I figured he would just go to bed.
But then I got a text that said, "i do, night."
And just that tiny, short text cheered me up, because I hadn't been expecting it from him. He's usually very distant, doesn't talk to people much unless he wants to.
So I cheered up and went to bed.
Anyway, home from visiting cousins now, and I should sleep soon, since I have school in the morning. xP
D-bag.
So, W is Facebook-officially in a relationship now. With the girl he'd been talking to and whatever. Basically, I'm like, cool, whatever. So I say, "Congratulations on your changed relationship status."
And he signs off.
Jeez, guys. People can't be friends once you're in a relationship?
Whatever.
Just whatever.
And he signs off.
Jeez, guys. People can't be friends once you're in a relationship?
Whatever.
Just whatever.
Opposite Day
So basically, I am a backwards person. In many ways. D ranked the guys in our group from hottest to least hot (he was number 2), and my ranking was exactly backwards of that. Ali pointed out that most girls start out liking bad boys and move to nice ones, and I first liked a bunch of nice ones and now like a bad boy. When happy things like parties happen, I feel down. It's just weird. I have strange reactions to a lot of things. Like right now, I'm at my cousin's house with family members I love, but I feel sad.
Mostly because I can't talk to my boys. Not talking to people, especially boys I like, makes me feel depressed. Which is not exactly a good thing. So I'll try and talk to them soon, but A didn't answer my texts and W hasn't been online since Thursday. Well, he's probably been online, but WoWing. His subscription runs out soon. He wanted to get to level 80 before it did.
Anyway, speaking of WoW, "Do You Wanna Date My Avatar?" is a HILARIOUS video on YouTube. Go look it up. :D
I'll have to send it to W. xD
Mostly because I can't talk to my boys. Not talking to people, especially boys I like, makes me feel depressed. Which is not exactly a good thing. So I'll try and talk to them soon, but A didn't answer my texts and W hasn't been online since Thursday. Well, he's probably been online, but WoWing. His subscription runs out soon. He wanted to get to level 80 before it did.
Anyway, speaking of WoW, "Do You Wanna Date My Avatar?" is a HILARIOUS video on YouTube. Go look it up. :D
I'll have to send it to W. xD
Cousin's House!
So, my aunt and I decided to randomly take a trip to visit my cousin, her husband, and their baby. Very spontaneously! My first road trip! Well, besides a day trip to Vegas with D and Ali. Anyway, so I am now at my cousin's house instead of hanging out with any boys. I could have had a date with B yesterday, or possibly hung out with W last night or today, but I decided a break might be nice. xD
My cousin's baby is so cute! She's ten months old, just learning to talk and walk. She likes to eat cheesy bunnies!
But, as usual, my mind is stuck on boys. xP I think A is having a rough time, because all of his friends are either in school or leaving on missions, so he can hardly ever hang out with people. I'm trying to talk to and text him more, so he knows he has friends. But yeah, that's him.
Can't get W out of my head! Well, can't get any of them out of my head, but W especially all the sudden. Probably 'cause we started talking again. He is very... attractive. But kind of a player. so we'll see what happens with that. I gotta get some CDs from him, he was going to burn them for me. Probably next week sometime.
Basically it's just those two right now. Thinking about two of them is enough for me, so I try not to think about the other ones. xD
As a side note, I got six hours of sleep last night. Woo me.
My cousin's baby is so cute! She's ten months old, just learning to talk and walk. She likes to eat cheesy bunnies!
But, as usual, my mind is stuck on boys. xP I think A is having a rough time, because all of his friends are either in school or leaving on missions, so he can hardly ever hang out with people. I'm trying to talk to and text him more, so he knows he has friends. But yeah, that's him.
Can't get W out of my head! Well, can't get any of them out of my head, but W especially all the sudden. Probably 'cause we started talking again. He is very... attractive. But kind of a player. so we'll see what happens with that. I gotta get some CDs from him, he was going to burn them for me. Probably next week sometime.
Basically it's just those two right now. Thinking about two of them is enough for me, so I try not to think about the other ones. xD
As a side note, I got six hours of sleep last night. Woo me.
W
I guess I should explain that I started talking to W again, and he's not being so much of a jerk. I realized I did not inform this blog of that fact. xD
Dilemmas. Hahaha.
Yeah, that word doesn't even mean anything anymore. xD
Basically, I don't know what to do on the boy front. I'm most attracted in general to A, most physically attracted to W, and B I think I just like as a friend. But I don't know how to tell B that, and I don't really know what to do about A, because I don't think he likes me like that, and with W... well, he's just a master of mixed signals. Although he did say I was attractive. Basically I guess I'll just try to hang out with them when I can, try and feel it out some more.
A's not liking me may have been influenced by D, who doesn't think it's a good idea for friends to date. Thanks, bro. No wonder A revoked your bro privileges. :P (If you're reading this, D, I'm just kidding and I love you, man.)
With W, it's just like... I think we're both pretty physically attracted to each other, and maybe more than that, but we can't hardly ever hang out. Which is lame.
As for B... like, he's nice and funny, but I just don't feel a spark. I feel more like I'm hanging out with a new friend than a potential crush, even. But I don't know how to tell him that. I guess I'll just be honest with him at some point, tell him I'm still really interested in some guys I already knew, and that I'd love to be friends with him. Because I think that's mostly what it is, that I'm just already attracted to W and A.
Woo anxiety. xD Really, right now I would basically trade something very valuable for a hug/cuddle from W or A. I just feel so much calmer when I'm with guys I care about and trust. Which is why I try and hang out with D so much, because I feel calmer. Not as calm as when I'm with a guy I have a crush on, but still calmer. I guess I just love physical contact, and I don't get that much of it.
Maybe W can hang out tomorrow, and we can play some Halo and hug or something. >.< That would be nice.
And maybe I'll hang out with A soon, try and cheer him up. He's awesome.
Basically, my brain is focused on boys right now. I'm not even going to start on C or J. xD
Basically, I don't know what to do on the boy front. I'm most attracted in general to A, most physically attracted to W, and B I think I just like as a friend. But I don't know how to tell B that, and I don't really know what to do about A, because I don't think he likes me like that, and with W... well, he's just a master of mixed signals. Although he did say I was attractive. Basically I guess I'll just try to hang out with them when I can, try and feel it out some more.
A's not liking me may have been influenced by D, who doesn't think it's a good idea for friends to date. Thanks, bro. No wonder A revoked your bro privileges. :P (If you're reading this, D, I'm just kidding and I love you, man.)
With W, it's just like... I think we're both pretty physically attracted to each other, and maybe more than that, but we can't hardly ever hang out. Which is lame.
As for B... like, he's nice and funny, but I just don't feel a spark. I feel more like I'm hanging out with a new friend than a potential crush, even. But I don't know how to tell him that. I guess I'll just be honest with him at some point, tell him I'm still really interested in some guys I already knew, and that I'd love to be friends with him. Because I think that's mostly what it is, that I'm just already attracted to W and A.
Woo anxiety. xD Really, right now I would basically trade something very valuable for a hug/cuddle from W or A. I just feel so much calmer when I'm with guys I care about and trust. Which is why I try and hang out with D so much, because I feel calmer. Not as calm as when I'm with a guy I have a crush on, but still calmer. I guess I just love physical contact, and I don't get that much of it.
Maybe W can hang out tomorrow, and we can play some Halo and hug or something. >.< That would be nice.
And maybe I'll hang out with A soon, try and cheer him up. He's awesome.
Basically, my brain is focused on boys right now. I'm not even going to start on C or J. xD
Real Quick Before Bed
Okay, so today was much happening on the boy front. Hung out with W and some other friends. Now, W teases me all the time about... well, things. But I think he has a girlfriend, or at least a girl he is interested in and talking to. So I don't know. But he's fun to hang out with and fun to talk to. So I'll just go with it.
The other thing that happened was I talked to A, pretty much let him know that I would be interested in him. He let me know that he's not interested, without saying it outright. I'm okay with that, because we're still friends, and hey, maybe he'll change his mind. We might hang out next week, and I'm going to start texting him more because I think he's lonely. All of his friends are in school and he's not, so there are rarely times when he can hang out with people.
Anyway, the only other really interesting thing today was I drank a Mountain Dew for the first time. One of those Voltage ones. Boy was I hyper. W still schooled me in air hockey and foosball, though. >.<
The other thing that happened was I talked to A, pretty much let him know that I would be interested in him. He let me know that he's not interested, without saying it outright. I'm okay with that, because we're still friends, and hey, maybe he'll change his mind. We might hang out next week, and I'm going to start texting him more because I think he's lonely. All of his friends are in school and he's not, so there are rarely times when he can hang out with people.
Anyway, the only other really interesting thing today was I drank a Mountain Dew for the first time. One of those Voltage ones. Boy was I hyper. W still schooled me in air hockey and foosball, though. >.<
Well.
So. I can't ever stop thinking. There are always twenty million things going through my brain at the same time. Like really.
Today, and for the last while, actually, it's mostly been about A. I want to work up the courage to talk to him more, but I just can't seem to find the confidence. I just... I really like him, and I don't want to pass by a chance.
I just don't even know. I feel totally stressed out and frustrated and I just don't know what to do about it.
In other news, an adorable little girl in nursery at church loves me. :D
Today, and for the last while, actually, it's mostly been about A. I want to work up the courage to talk to him more, but I just can't seem to find the confidence. I just... I really like him, and I don't want to pass by a chance.
I just don't even know. I feel totally stressed out and frustrated and I just don't know what to do about it.
In other news, an adorable little girl in nursery at church loves me. :D
Woo!
So I hung out with my friend Tabby today! She's pretty much the happiest person I know, and it always cheers me up to hang out with her. She's just so... happy! All the time! xD
Anyway, so last night I went to a dance. B was there, and we danced. I was super, super nervous. Like, nervous enough to not look him in the eye while we danced. >.< I just... I dunno. It's hard, for me. I get so anxious about things. I worry that I might do something wrong. I'm not even sure I like B like that right now. Really, I'd like to have a chance to dance with A.
I'd like a lot of things.
I want to talk to C, I want to know what the heck is up with W, I want to be able to talk to A without freaking out, I'd like to know what I think about B... Ugh. There's just a lot. Braincake, I call it. Because it's like my brain is mixing a cake, and each thing I think about is one of the ingredients.
HAHA, surprise ingredient. Boy J, who I didn't mention before. He's had a crush on me since middle school, and I'm pretty sure he still does. He keeps talking to me. And 'accidentally' saying 'love ya.' Like, four or five times. Once is an accident. More than that... no. I don't really like him that way, and I never really have. I don't want to hurt his feelings or anything, but... I dunno. It's just like, one more ingredient in the braincake.
Also! New boy alert. Boy... Uh, we'll just call him Boy E. E is a guy that I have kind of known for a few years. By 'kind of known' I mean like, we saw each other at school sometimes because we had mutual friends. Anyway, lately he's been commenting on a lot of my Facebook posts, and he wrote on my wall that I was attractive. And with him, you don't know if he's just saying it to be nice, or if he means that he likes you. So I don't even know! D:
Grah. Boys.
Really. Right now. I just want a chance with A. But I don't even know if he even thinks about me as a girl, and not just 'one of the guys.' And I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it. xP
Anyway, so last night I went to a dance. B was there, and we danced. I was super, super nervous. Like, nervous enough to not look him in the eye while we danced. >.< I just... I dunno. It's hard, for me. I get so anxious about things. I worry that I might do something wrong. I'm not even sure I like B like that right now. Really, I'd like to have a chance to dance with A.
I'd like a lot of things.
I want to talk to C, I want to know what the heck is up with W, I want to be able to talk to A without freaking out, I'd like to know what I think about B... Ugh. There's just a lot. Braincake, I call it. Because it's like my brain is mixing a cake, and each thing I think about is one of the ingredients.
HAHA, surprise ingredient. Boy J, who I didn't mention before. He's had a crush on me since middle school, and I'm pretty sure he still does. He keeps talking to me. And 'accidentally' saying 'love ya.' Like, four or five times. Once is an accident. More than that... no. I don't really like him that way, and I never really have. I don't want to hurt his feelings or anything, but... I dunno. It's just like, one more ingredient in the braincake.
Also! New boy alert. Boy... Uh, we'll just call him Boy E. E is a guy that I have kind of known for a few years. By 'kind of known' I mean like, we saw each other at school sometimes because we had mutual friends. Anyway, lately he's been commenting on a lot of my Facebook posts, and he wrote on my wall that I was attractive. And with him, you don't know if he's just saying it to be nice, or if he means that he likes you. So I don't even know! D:
Grah. Boys.
Really. Right now. I just want a chance with A. But I don't even know if he even thinks about me as a girl, and not just 'one of the guys.' And I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it. xP
Free time?
So, here's the deal with my free time. I have The Twins, a couple of my best friends, who want to hang out. I have Ali, D's girlfriend and another best friend, who also likes to hang out. I have B who wants to go to movies and things. I have A and D who like to come over and play video games. I have my family that wants me to clean things and such. I have random friends who want to hang out sometime.
And that's just the people.
I also have homework, games I want to play, books I want to read, internet I want to surf, movies I want to watch, and people texting me. Like A, who is texting me right now. And I don't know if it's because he's bored (likely), or what. But it's fun to text him. He's pretty funny.
Now if I could just get a job, all of this would be even harder. Everyone has different schedules, and often people want to hang out on the same day. Like today, The Twins want to hang out, B wants a date, and D has the day off. So does A, for that matter, but I'm pretty sure he's going to a movie and hanging out with his friend.
Just... grar. Like, I want there to be about twelve more hours in every day so I can do everything I want to. But then... a lot of the time I'm just sitting around bored. For some reason things like to happen all at once.
Anyway, yeah. Life is crazy. Now I'm gonna go play some games before The Twins come over and B starts texting me, like A and now D are doing. xD
And that's just the people.
I also have homework, games I want to play, books I want to read, internet I want to surf, movies I want to watch, and people texting me. Like A, who is texting me right now. And I don't know if it's because he's bored (likely), or what. But it's fun to text him. He's pretty funny.
Now if I could just get a job, all of this would be even harder. Everyone has different schedules, and often people want to hang out on the same day. Like today, The Twins want to hang out, B wants a date, and D has the day off. So does A, for that matter, but I'm pretty sure he's going to a movie and hanging out with his friend.
Just... grar. Like, I want there to be about twelve more hours in every day so I can do everything I want to. But then... a lot of the time I'm just sitting around bored. For some reason things like to happen all at once.
Anyway, yeah. Life is crazy. Now I'm gonna go play some games before The Twins come over and B starts texting me, like A and now D are doing. xD
Them Boys
Okay, I'm probably going to refer to boys in this blog. So I better give people the rundown on their code names. Those who know me will probably recognize the descriptions.
Boy A - A close friend, who I have a little bit of a crush on. He's very random and spontaneous, and I guess that might be why he's so awesome.
Boy B - A boy at college. I met him at a dance. He's very fun to hang out with, and we've gone on a couple dates, but I'm not exactly sure what to make of him yet.
Boy C - Oh boy, this is the big one. Dated him for two years, thought it was going to be much longer than that, but he left me for his best friend, a girl I will simply refer to as BF.
Boy D - My best friend, practically my brother. We hang out and play video games.
Boy W - Guy I "kinda dated" for about... a month? I don't even know. He's pretty attractive, but he's being kind of a jerk lately. He hardly talks to me.
Those are the most prominent boys in my life, I guess. There are others, of course, but those are the ones I think about most.
Anyway, C isn't talking to me right now, even though I wish he would. I almost ran into (literally) him and BF a couple times today. They were coming out of a building I was going into. If I had been a couple seconds slower, we would have gone through the door at the same time. When I turned around and went back out of the building, they were outside the door. C practically jumped out of the way as I walked past, not looking at him, because that's what he wants.
I guess right now B is my best bet. He's funny and smart, and I like hanging out with him. But parts of me won't let go of W and A, let alone C. Right now, if I could have my choice of boys, I'd probably go with C, A, W, then B. Just because... Well, I usually like guys more the longer I know them, and I've only known B a couple weeks.
But really, my best prospects are probably B... and then I don't even know. I don't know if A even thinks about me, W is being a jerk and not really talking to me much, and C is with BF and not talking to me at all. So, almost the opposite of what I would choose.
Just to add to all of that, of course there are hot, tall guys at college.
Really, I just want someone to be with. I guess it comes from being with C for so long, but I just want to have someone who's going to be around, who'll play video games with me, who'll joke with me, who will buy me books, but will also call me beautiful and treat me like a girl when I want to be treated like one.
I guess I just don't know. I wish I had the courage to talk to A, I wish I could get to know B better (this one will probably happen), I wish C would just freaking talk to me (is it really THAT hard to say hi once in a while?), and I wish W wasn't being such a jerk.
But hey, D is really great! Best bro a girl could ask for. :D
Boy A - A close friend, who I have a little bit of a crush on. He's very random and spontaneous, and I guess that might be why he's so awesome.
Boy B - A boy at college. I met him at a dance. He's very fun to hang out with, and we've gone on a couple dates, but I'm not exactly sure what to make of him yet.
Boy C - Oh boy, this is the big one. Dated him for two years, thought it was going to be much longer than that, but he left me for his best friend, a girl I will simply refer to as BF.
Boy D - My best friend, practically my brother. We hang out and play video games.
Boy W - Guy I "kinda dated" for about... a month? I don't even know. He's pretty attractive, but he's being kind of a jerk lately. He hardly talks to me.
Those are the most prominent boys in my life, I guess. There are others, of course, but those are the ones I think about most.
Anyway, C isn't talking to me right now, even though I wish he would. I almost ran into (literally) him and BF a couple times today. They were coming out of a building I was going into. If I had been a couple seconds slower, we would have gone through the door at the same time. When I turned around and went back out of the building, they were outside the door. C practically jumped out of the way as I walked past, not looking at him, because that's what he wants.
I guess right now B is my best bet. He's funny and smart, and I like hanging out with him. But parts of me won't let go of W and A, let alone C. Right now, if I could have my choice of boys, I'd probably go with C, A, W, then B. Just because... Well, I usually like guys more the longer I know them, and I've only known B a couple weeks.
But really, my best prospects are probably B... and then I don't even know. I don't know if A even thinks about me, W is being a jerk and not really talking to me much, and C is with BF and not talking to me at all. So, almost the opposite of what I would choose.
Just to add to all of that, of course there are hot, tall guys at college.
Really, I just want someone to be with. I guess it comes from being with C for so long, but I just want to have someone who's going to be around, who'll play video games with me, who'll joke with me, who will buy me books, but will also call me beautiful and treat me like a girl when I want to be treated like one.
I guess I just don't know. I wish I had the courage to talk to A, I wish I could get to know B better (this one will probably happen), I wish C would just freaking talk to me (is it really THAT hard to say hi once in a while?), and I wish W wasn't being such a jerk.
But hey, D is really great! Best bro a girl could ask for. :D
I'm the Batman!
So, I was watching Batman Begins today. It's a great movie, but there are some glaring inconsistancies.
1. Real ninjas could not be killed by a building exploding. I just finished reading The Ninja Handbook. Really now. An explosion? These are guys that are used to fighting mantataurs in the Killcific Ocean. No explosion will get them.
2. Okay, the microwave emitter can instantly vaporize huge amounts of water, but has no negative effect on humans? May I remind you that the human body is mostly made of water? Come on, guys. All the humans near that thing would be vaporized too.
3. Alfred is the coolest person in the movie.
4. Why is the little boy not terrified of Rachel, or for that matter, the Batman himself? Who knows. Maybe he is an awesome little boy.
5. How did Scarecrow not gas himself all the times? Does his burlap-sack mask have a filter? What about when he wasn't wearing it? Is he immune? Hmm...
That's all I can think of right now. I really love the movie, there are just things that I wonder about.
Also, Liam Neeson is amazing. Ra's al Ghul, the dad in Taken, Qui-Gon Jinn, Oskar Schindler... and if he needed to be any more awesome, he voiced the dad in Ponyo. Yeah. He's that cool.
Well, that's all I got for now. Go watch Ponyo.
1. Real ninjas could not be killed by a building exploding. I just finished reading The Ninja Handbook. Really now. An explosion? These are guys that are used to fighting mantataurs in the Killcific Ocean. No explosion will get them.
2. Okay, the microwave emitter can instantly vaporize huge amounts of water, but has no negative effect on humans? May I remind you that the human body is mostly made of water? Come on, guys. All the humans near that thing would be vaporized too.
3. Alfred is the coolest person in the movie.
4. Why is the little boy not terrified of Rachel, or for that matter, the Batman himself? Who knows. Maybe he is an awesome little boy.
5. How did Scarecrow not gas himself all the times? Does his burlap-sack mask have a filter? What about when he wasn't wearing it? Is he immune? Hmm...
That's all I can think of right now. I really love the movie, there are just things that I wonder about.
Also, Liam Neeson is amazing. Ra's al Ghul, the dad in Taken, Qui-Gon Jinn, Oskar Schindler... and if he needed to be any more awesome, he voiced the dad in Ponyo. Yeah. He's that cool.
Well, that's all I got for now. Go watch Ponyo.
Secret Room Get!
So, the thing is, I'm not going to actively tell people about this blog. I put it in my Facebook profile on my information page. If you find this, congratulations, you're either a close friend or a creepy stalker. I think you know which is which.
My reason for this is that I don't like those people who are like, "come raed mah blog!!!111!!!lol!!" Just... no. I'm mostly doing this for myself, you know. I just want to see if I can actually keep it going, think of things to write about regularly. A place to vent, if you will. Yes, there will probably be rants on here, or depressed scribblings. Poems, pictures, drawings, jokes... I'm a random person.
But hey, if you've found this, you already know that, I would bet.
My reason for this is that I don't like those people who are like, "come raed mah blog!!!111!!!lol!!" Just... no. I'm mostly doing this for myself, you know. I just want to see if I can actually keep it going, think of things to write about regularly. A place to vent, if you will. Yes, there will probably be rants on here, or depressed scribblings. Poems, pictures, drawings, jokes... I'm a random person.
But hey, if you've found this, you already know that, I would bet.
First Post
Woo, here goes another attempt by me to actually keep a blog going. Maybe this one will actually happen. I really do love to write, I just don't know what to write about sometimes.
I guess I should explain the name of this blog, Underwater Stages. I'm just sitting here in my living room, looking around (for inspiration?) when I see the sheet music for the Underwater Stages Theme in Super Mario Bros. And it just stuck in my head, I guess.
Really, I hate being underwater. I think the ocean is a creepy, creepy place. Too many scary fish. But I love the Underwater Stages Theme. It's probably one of my favorite pieces of video game music. Something about it just makes me want to sway along.
How this applies to my life, I haven't figured out yet. For now I guess I'm just bobbing along, trying to avoid the Cheep-Cheeps and the Bloopers.
I guess I should explain the name of this blog, Underwater Stages. I'm just sitting here in my living room, looking around (for inspiration?) when I see the sheet music for the Underwater Stages Theme in Super Mario Bros. And it just stuck in my head, I guess.
Really, I hate being underwater. I think the ocean is a creepy, creepy place. Too many scary fish. But I love the Underwater Stages Theme. It's probably one of my favorite pieces of video game music. Something about it just makes me want to sway along.
How this applies to my life, I haven't figured out yet. For now I guess I'm just bobbing along, trying to avoid the Cheep-Cheeps and the Bloopers.
